Happy Friday! We made it to the weekend ya’ll!
I started a new job last week and as exciting as that is, I’ve been extremely overwhelmed and am so mentally exhausted at the end of each day I barley have the energy to eat dinner. This has also resulted in me being way too hard on myself, in multiple ways.
Now, this isn’t like a “new thing” for me by any means. I’m a first born, I’m a perfectionist, and I’m as big of a people pleaser as they come. There are many instances in my life where I LOVE those qualities about myself. But then there are other times in life ( aka currently ) where I forget that I love those qualities, and in the process, I forget to love myself.
I put so much pressure on myself to be what everyone else wants/needs me to be, that sometimes I forget to just be who I need me to be. Does that make any sense? The past few weeks I’ve been in training at my new job and I came home after day 3 and had a complete meltdown panic attack bawling to Chris because I felt like I wasn’t ready to do the job on my own yet. He looked at me and goes, “Madison, it’s been THREE DAYS. No one expects you to do this on your own after three days.” I was like “wow duh.” WHY AM I SO HARD ON MYSELF?
I know for sure I can’t be the only one guilty of this. When I’m hard on myself in one area of life, I find that I’m hard on myself in other areas as well. I become very critical of my body, of my hair, my skin, my eyelashes, just anything I can nit pick about myself that I don’t “like”. Which is ridiculous because every other day I love each and every one of those things about myself!
So a few days ago ( with a few minor setbacks ) I made a promise to myself to just accept these things about myself and really embrace them, because each and every single one of those things are what makes me, ME, and that’s a beautiful thing.
When you take a minute to tell yourself something positive about yourself, instead of something negative, it changes your whole mood, your whole outlook, your whole day! Every time I’ve done this lately I not only instantly feel lighter & happier, I feel so much more confident. I wouldn’t even say it’s too far to wake up, look yourself in the eye through the mirror and tell yourself, out loud, “I’m a total babe, a total rockstar, and I am going to own this day!”. And keep reminding yourself of that through out the whole entire day. Every day there are going to be good things that happen that make you feel proud of yourself, and there will be negative things that happen that can cause you to be down on yourself. Instead of letting those negative moments have all the power, turn it around and keep reminding yourself that you are doing your best, and that’s all that you can do!
Try practicing more self love this weekend, and please share with me how you feel. We need to bring ourselves, and each other UP way more often, don’t you agree?